ello Laura,for me the imodiums sure help me,at
least i have a little peace of mind that i will not
have a accident,and if i do,i must of been really sick
or ate something bad.I wouldn't go over board on
them at first,could cause constipation,for me they are
causing no problems so far.This weather is getting
scary,our crops are withering away,and no relief in
sight.Just false promises of rain,is to cool off Monday i
think now.Yes my fiancee left me after a yr and a
1/2,just too much for her to handle,we were living
together for the past 3 yrs,and to be married the yr after
my accident,but were on hold.I don't blame her for
leaving,i did in the begining,til i started thinking of her
instead of me-me.Now i think it was the best thing she
could of done for me by leaving,it made me a lot more
independent.I got very emotional when she left,just about
called it quits,counseling for both of you i think is a
good idea.I still have a long ways to go.I wish she
would of left me earlier,but just temporary,all i
needed was a wake up call.I was depressed too,this
internet has been great in some ways,but i also got
addicted and spent way too much time on here,still do i
guess.Also a lot of my problem was the Dr. gave me a 2-5%
chance of walking again,well we held onto that hope and
just waited for some return,well it never happened.I'm
not sure how you life is compared to mine,so i'm not
telling you to stay or go,thats something you have to
figure out on your own.I think it's great you are
thinking of counseing,we waited too long.If we would of
went things may of been different?.About being mad,i'm
still mad,maybe not as bad as a year ago,but it's a
tramatic loss for us,not only us but our loved ones,i
never thought of anyone but me and my loss,but my
family loss something too.The old saying we hurt the
ones we love is so true,I'm sure Dave don't meen to be
mad,but we all have to vent sometimes,and he is venting
to you.Boy did i write a book here.Hope i haven't
confused you more,i think talking about it with other
people helps me,i need to vent myself sometimes.One
thing that has kept me going is that there is someone
always worse off if you just look around.Sorry to hear
of another SCI near you,it can happen to anyone.It
might be good for Dave to talk to this boy,they can
yell and complain together,Dave is probably more ready
than the other boy for visiting.I didn't want to
accept my injury,just too much stuff to deal with at the
time,denial,why me ,you know.Well hope i never got out of line
here,been setting here debating on hitting post or not.I
just hope you and Dave don't make the same mistakes i
have made.Email if you want to talk some more.Hang in
there,Randy